Thursday, September 28, 2006
Title: Down
I didnt have any intentions of posting this entry but something happened just last night so i though i should penned it down on my blog.. Sometimes, I just wonder whether the problem lies with me or what? Its been so long more than 2 years and i should have learnt from that painful lesson and wise enough not to repeat the same mistakes again.. Alas, it was not meant to be.. I did the same thing and the consequences are unbearable.. Its painful and depressing but I can only blame it upon myself and no one else.. I recall something similiar happened back then and after the initial rocky patches, it was all systems go from then on.. I just wish that this will be the case and i'm not going to sit down and do nothing and wait for miracles to happen..
I'm determined and focus about doing the best that i can and making sure every ounce of my energy will be channelled towards achieving this goal..
Whatever happened had been done and dusted.. I cant possibly go back in time to correct but i know that this will spur me on to do even better so that nobody's disappointed with anything.. I just hope that at least i'm given this opportunity to do so.. if not i will never forgive myself..
*sighz*
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
Title: Break!!
After almost 1 month of hiatus, i'm back to post my entry again.. It has been a hectic month for me personally.. be it school work or other personal stuff.. Its a roller-coaster ride to say the least.. I'm glad that everything is more or less settled and it should be getting better.. For work wise, i think this 1 week recess break is a great time for me to catch up with what i've been missing out for the past 6 weeks.. At the same time, its time to consolidate and work on my imminent projects and presentations.. They are due in about less than 4 weeks time so its time to start cracking on ideas and work on it.. I'm quite satisfied with my 2 quizzes so far, hopefully this will be the same for my end-of-year exams.. Then again, its satisfied only so i have to work doubly hard if i want to score As for my modules.. It will be difficult but its not impossible..
For my personal problems, everything is more or less settled down and i shall build on that and aim for better things to come.. It was difficult initially but i'm glad all the issues and conflicts were ironed out, looking for compromises to maintain it.. Lets hope that we can build on this and work towards the common goal..
Other things, i'm in my hall's FOC main comm as a Assistant Head Programmer, planning the programs for next year orientation camp.. Let's hope that i can assist my Head and provide her with relevant ideas in order to make next year's orientation camp as much fun as it can goes..
Its a short entry so i shall stop here now.. Oh ya, my FBT soccer team just won another game.. The scoreline 4-3..
*cheers*
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Friday, September 01, 2006
Title: Decisions
Its been almost a month since i started my University education and i must say its a refreshing experience as compared to my NS life and my JC days if i could still remembered.. Definitely its not easy adjusting to the rigours of studying and juggling it with other activities like soccer, mahjong and supper.. You have to be disciplined to do your revision and readings before and after lectures and of course you must at least attempt your tutorial questions.. I just had my first presentation on a case study regarding Giordano International.. Its a marketing presentation and it was tough coming together to discuss and brainstorm our ideas and put it in presentable format.. It was fun though as i get to know my classmates better and we can joke around but we know that we have to get it done and since we are the first group to present, we've got nothing to lose..
That's about my studies, now for my entertainment in hall.. I was involved in Inter-block games (IBG) and played a lot of games eg. soccer, galaga (street soccer), floorball, billiards and sepak takraw.. It was fun and tiring too.. Besides that, we have our mid-night activities as well.. Mahjong and supper are the main highlights and we stayed up whole night playing till 7am the latest.. Supper gatherings are inpromptu because the seniors will be asking us whether we want it and normally we obliged, Mac's orders do happen also and we had a hard time trying to tell the operator our address but thankfully, we did have our Mac for supper.. *grinz* It's a good place to hone my culinary skills as i get to cook some delicious dishes like, spaghetti, noodles, soups and just last night harsh browns.. What an experience..
After the studies and the entertainment, its about something else which unknowingly has become part of my thoughts since I came here.. 1 month on and i'm still confused about the way things are turning to be.. I thought i have found my way and going on to better things but apparantly it was not meant to be.. I'm lost and i do not have a headway at all, i blog that i'm at a crossroad not knowing what to do, i guess i'm still at the very spot thinking about what to do.. But this time round, there are no influences at all to sway me to whatever direction it was meant to be.. I'm clueless about what's the best solution out of this.. Or maybe there isn't a solution at all or perhaps I already knew but I'm not doing so.. One thing for sure, upon hearing that piece of news, i think it may have a significant impact on the current situation.. Like it a not, its going to happen and i cannot do anything about it.. As much as i wish it will not materialise, i guess i have to see how i can improve on it..
It seems to me that this has been the case for the past 2 years and there isn't any improvements at all, does the problem lie with me?? Seriously i have no clue about that and i think i never will.. The only way is to go forward and hopefully, just maybe things will be different..
Life is about ups and downs but its the experience that matters..
Life is full of surprises but we are always not contented..
Life's short so enjoy while it lasts..
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