Friday, August 18, 2006
Title: Alone
I'm stayin back tonight in hall because i have a game tomorrow morning but my roomie has just gone back to enjoy his mum's delicious cooking.. *sighz* I'm alone tonight again.. my friends are going back tonight because there's no point for them to be staying back.. I will be probably doing the same thing if i do not have that game tomorrow.. Anyway i'm planning to have an early night because i slept at 4am last night after a game of mahjong..
I think i have found the solutions to the strange feelings i had in my earlier posts.. Actually its not so difficult at all.. Sometimes you just need time to be sure of what's going on.. They always say that 'Time will heal all wounds', i am neutral about this statement because i've been through it and i know how it feels.. Its a struggle within yourself because you do not wish that you can forget everything but at the same time, you are dying to get rid of it.. Its ironic but it happens.. I know the answer to the question i've been asking myself but i do not think its possible to forget everything with just a blink of the eye.. It takes time but i guess i'm stronger now so it be easily forgotten before i know it.. Actually the duration is determined by myself and only i can decide when to stop and when to continue but i refused to take charge of it.. Am i running away from it?? I guess i am but i can't help it..
Human beings are sensitive to changes and drastic measures.. They complain and make headlines out of it.. What do they gain from it?? Emotional sense of achievement, because they are stating a claim which could affect many others.. Thus, i'm sensitive to my surroundings and the people around me.. Its not difficult to know a person but to understand the characteristics and knowing how to communicate with one another is different.. People tell lies but the actions do not.. 'A picture tells a thousand words' this has been a clique commonly used by many.. You do not need to say anything, just an action from you and i will know what you actually meant.. Great speakers uses graphics and actions to relate their points across the audience.. This has been a hallmark for them.. Its the same when its being applied in my context..
Looking at the surroundings and the people around me, i'm sensitive enough to be told from their actions that this is actually what they meant.. Definitely i will not be going around stating a claim and making a nuisance out of myself.. I'm still trying to learn about their characteristics in order to have a positive and effective communication..
I'm beginning to run out of ideas to blog my this entry.. In a nutshell, its easy to see and observe what's going around but it may be wrong to speculate.. As much as i hate to accept it, this is the reality so that leaves me with no choice..
*sighz*
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